26/9/2010

a day missing in sadness.^the most bright part today is around the noon. endured waiting for d/l. office once colleagues tentatively shown bonus dispatching among them. in the morning they summoned for meeting, i kept busy on desk as usual, for i decided its high time to switch my living support from the company, QRRS, a dying machine suffering fuel leaking by stealing mouse flocks among its staff, to Masheng (Asoh Yukiko), my Japanese Crowned Queen, my God of plenty&serene. cloudy usually let me indecisive, but hopeful tomorrow will bring me unshakable faith&confidence. the night it rains, cleaning&killing for me, sole for me, &so beautiful&formidable. watched rain in dorm’s door. bought food&met beautiful girls in QRRS dorms but don’t know where&who they r. roamed in dorm in music till after 10pm went to bed. woke up before 5am. ate breakfast, abiding God’s bliss&quite enjoy it. its cool&bright morning. Masheng (Asoh Yukiko), stay every moment with me!, bring our babies sooner in our marriage!

benzrad’s commment on the day

respectable Chinese lives long.

方舟子被打后首炮：质疑首席科学家刘维宁身份
China nowadays greatly obliged to persons like Dr. Fang, any society needs trust based on authentication. Dr. Fang is a real man, any Chinese should pay him salute.

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benzrad’s commment on the day

human right of net access.

hope sooner world nowadays adopts the human right of net access. human right likely under the guidance of humanity, ie. the beneficial of human being.

as to a Chinese on China mainland, i hope net can be more meaningful&positive impact upon the society’s innovation.

the UN Human Rights Council to adopt five new Internet freedoms: freedom of expression, of worship, from want, from fear, to connect.

Universal Declaration of Human Rights (UDHR). Freedom from slavery. Freedom from torture. Equal protection under the law.

from Joho the Blog » The Internet as a human right – www.hyperorg.com

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25/9/2010

dreamed of hunting killer.^dreamed of Japanese again in dawn. then dreamed passing Huangzhou, where i finished my senior middle school, in my hometown journey. 2 alumni, a Wang&a Zhang, met me. the Zhang on way to ship started to hunt for my life. its cloudy in this morning. sins in office damaged my network wire&tentatively shown it loosely on my desk. dog by it indicating of option to deprive me off Internet. fix it by replacing with a wire i stored. God, kill the thief in office.

24/9/2010

dreamed of Japanese family.^past 2 days with baby son in gaming full of joys, esp we succeeded all mission in game "Army Ranger: Mogadishu for PC". baby shared the moment reading the ending product message after fury war field. today baby&his mom ema, who said will join family gathering&rarely at home, so she suggested i busy with my own business, don’t go over to accompany baby. dreamed of Japanese in dream. its sunny now. i hope i find fun today in office. God, let me connected with pulse&atop game industry. God, rid baby of boring. let him meaningful in silent moments in his life, like i do.

21/9/2010

a sunny day with new cyberspace footprint.^yesterday is busy. in night in dorm arranged claiming space for my hometown domestically, esp with 163&hexun, overnight. overseas profiles with yahoo&google already done years ago. this morning got up even earlier, likely before 6am when i settled in office. office sins both stayed at noon, while i enjoy the new space in memory of my ancestor, Zhudajiu, 朱大九. God, see my works there&lasting centuries, for ur glory under my ancestor since the Emperor of Ming Dynasty.
tomorrow is lunar Mid-Autumn Day. i longing now for gaming together with baby son, warrenzh. sunshine already shines the valley&bees wooing for delicacy. God, prepare me for the holy moment, for the gathering. my girls, come&let’s game, or make fun.

From life as it extends

From life as it extends

for google&flick blocked within China mainlnad for years, here some copy hosted domestic.

Bright full moon after lunar Mid-Autumn day in sky above QRRS front space.

baby glad&turns playful with his new clothes.

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Posted via email from zhuson, united US and China in one under God’s shine. ╋中美一家神

Its a raining day this morning, exactly as Chinese lunar calendar indicting, Chushu, 处暑, summer heat is over. i walked barely in rain with my work suite, ie. notebook&camera, to join office, for every work day is meaningful for me, cultivation, accumulation, and harvest. last afternoon it also rained amid sunshine, its in fact a sun rain, i told baby its the most blessing weather. we had a longest time in years playing pc games together and succeeded most missions while his mom napped in another room. then we dined out. here r the moment we gathered&dined. baby naught a lot in the dinner, with his favorite food Guobaorou, flour coated pork. his mom these day frequently complained enough of him. after dinner, the rain stopped, we walked back, and i departed them on the ground near baby’s mom’s house.
after returned to QRRS dorms where i lingered for my new marriage, i directly join local church from bus stop, listened a nice preach by the male Priest, who elaborates more on bible, comparing his female pal who only recited poems or quotation from bible. the preach again discussed strong believing as my favorite. after the believers left, i expressed obligation to the Priest, we both felt blessed. on the garden of the dorm, i buzzed baby&his mom, who more and more felt at a loss in our once broken marriage. i buzzed twice to encourage baby lives in patience to see the bright days, for only with bitter or tasteless, we enjoy more the elation and sweat of bliss when it pours in. quite some girls in the dorms haunted outside around me. i can’t say other but it all can’t be more accomplished.
in the night, i roamed in dorm, reviewing my good time and ahead. sometimes i can’t but sang loudly. i also drank a bit. God, u see how close the day of my wedding beset. my baby son badly need a new mother to cook him delicacy. i badly need a soul of girl accompanies&shares our love to u, the Mightiest. God, rid me of anxious, bring my girls to me, to my new Empire of China.
That’s my another happy weekends.

From farewell to lavish summer

From farewell to lavish summer

From farewell to lavish summer

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for picasaweb&flickr blocked within China mainland, the shit&dog dominated sinful land, here some digest of photos hosted domestically.

benzrad, 朱子卓, in restaurant amid a sunrain, shot by warrenzh, 朱楚甲.

baby son posed for shot for an profile photo for his music class, after dined out.

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its drizzling when i breakfast in QRRS dorms canteen&heading to office in this weekend. this dawn i had a wonderful dream. i first dreamed of matching in dark. people were put in dark&sex with matches reached in dark house. i trying to find my mate but didn’t excite. then dream raising a fish, namely likely Giant salamander, then in an exam to report on the fish. i always hate exam. after exam, i saw a younger fish accompany the fish we raise, the latter then has its gender. then i informed that the fish’s tail and meat above shouldn’t be eaten as a custom. woke up&reviewing baby’s asking not to be God sometimes those days, i was so blessed that baby son, warrenzh, God of Universe, exactly my son, my dearest son. the bliss so great that i got up at once. a drizzle already passed over just amid my dream, after i made water in dawn. the breakfast is plausible, includes a sweat pie. on way to office, it drizzled again, so many loves from Masheng, my Crowned Queen of Japan. 
yesterday i visited baby son in his mom, emakingir’s house. ema still in loss in her refusal loan of 400rmb to let me buy family 4th domain, benzrad.us ( http://benzrad.us ). i criticized her in our QQ chat. but my Taiwanese friend help me after rebuffed me once buy the domain exactly yesterday as i suggested in memory of Masheng, who long time urges me to own continents against future world disaster. ema buzzed me twice but both didn’t reach me in noisy situation. soon after i arrived there, i told i need her loan, which greatly relief her. she lost 1900rmb and more last weekend when she answered my call on way to River Nen with baby son. that money was offered by me to buy her a e-bike to carry baby son route his kindergarten, for ema complained baby grows that she hardly carry him with her old bike. its all time a bright Saturday, i also showered in public bathroom. baby enjoyed ice cream&candy i bought by the way. i backup stuff from web, tried new games on his notebook. baby glad to see the fresh game experience. near 3pm, i hold him slept on my shoulders. then held him on my arms, till later shifted to bed. his mom urged me to leave, so i returned to dorm, where i ate an early dinner. 
in reviewing the glory of my family, my heart often fulfilled with proud. God, the only missing is my beloved girls, esp the girl on the train when i returning to Qiqihar from my dad’s hometown, back to Jun 5,2010, and my girl Zhou, once appeared&hunted after by me till the company startled&stopped me. i know they praying for me, bring us together, God! 

6/8/2010

cloudy morning with periodical sunshines.^for no available helping hands for loan for my new domain, i decided trying alipay, a Chinese copy of paypal. waiting the process finished to let me pay overseas. this morning is cool, but periodical sunshine very bright&aspiring. sorted stuff, activated baby’s mom, emakingir’s 163 mobile email box, retouch her signatures. its the first day the company complies new national common exercise ordain. China steadily falls into trifle&loosing off&losing end. the old time collective exercise helps none but the dead in chamber, kills nothing but time&creativeness. See this Amp at http://amplify.com/u/8e3x 

5/8/2010

hopeful a new domain join my titles soon.^read. talked to Taiwanese friend for loan to buy a new domain for my web id. sorted bookmarks to include it&backup. backup family google knol to zoho wiki. sorted stuff before dinner. in dorm prepared confidential for family new member site. its a pale morning. 2 friends rebuff my plan of buy the domain. i had to delay the registry. dozed awhile after lunch, dreamed of losing in exam, which i dislike very much.

4/8/2010

dreamed of new domain buy&restless reckons of debt.^read. refined autopost to posterous among family amplify accounts. got “starcraft Ⅱ” finally, amid praying God for pardon me lingering in office for games. played badminton with the couple whose wife worked in neighbor office after dinner. baby didn’t talk to me in daily buzz. dreamed of buy one or two domains for my web id, indecisive upon the cost, for my poor financial status hardly supports. join office earlier than 7am. a pale morning like yesterday but still i felt Masheng’s love. God, what’s the gap between our reuniting?

3/8/2010

warned of vilification from familiars.^last afternoon chatted with 2 young folks from Zhudajiu, my hometown. one serving in Chinese Navy. in night God notified me of stab from the back by folks seemingly intimates. dreamed a lot in dawn. sorted os after found its infectious. China surveillance blocked my os auto-update for quite some cases, till i adopt a lan proxy&done. office turns a hell at noon, for all crews stayed, just aim to espionage&challenge me. felt glad with a cleaner os. Masheng, save my work.

cloudy morning with periodical sunshines.^for no available helping hands for loan for my new domain, i decided trying alipay, a Chinese copy of paypal. waiting the process finished to let me pay overseas. this morning is cool, but periodical sunshine very bright&aspiring. sorted stuff, activated baby’s mom, emakingir’s 163 mobile email box, retouch her signatures. its the first day the company complies new national common exercise ordain. China steadily falls into trifle&loosing off&losing end. the old time collective exercise helps none but the dead in chamber, kills nothing but time&creativeness.

hopeful a new domain join my titles soon.^read. talked to Taiwanese friend for loan to buy a new domain for my web id. sorted bookmarks to include it&backup. backup family google knol to zoho wiki. sorted stuff before dinner. in dorm prepared confidential for family new member site. its a pale morning. 2 friends rebuff my plan of buy the domain. i had to delay the registry. dozed awhile after lunch, dreamed of losing in exam, which i dislike very much.

dreamed of new domain buy&restless reckons of debt.^read. refined autopost to posterous among family amplify accounts. got “starcraft Ⅱ” finally, amid praying God for pardon me lingering in office for games. played badminton with the couple whose wife worked in neighbor office after dinner. baby didn’t talk to me in daily buzz. dreamed of buy one or two domain for my web id, indecisive upon the cost, for my poor financial status hardly supports. join office earlier than 7am. a pale morning like yesterday but still i felt Masheng’s love. God, what’s the gap between our reuniting?